Ravyn's Safe HavenFriday, October 2, 200910:25PM - BlissHave you ever had someone turn your mind completely on its head? Someone that with a simple word or a hug that can throw your heart into a wonderfully blissful sot of chaos? My head and heart are swimming and I think I like it. First time I've really felt anything close to this in a long time, and it's all thanks to her. Monday, July 13, 20096:59AM - After pulling an all-nighter and reviewing my entire LJ I really think I prefer this site to any other social site I use, minus twitter, because twitter can be updated from my like 7 year old piece of shit phone. Going over my old entries shows how much I've changed since I started this journal 6 years ago. I've gorwn up a lot. I'm still not the happiest person in the world but compared to who I was in high school I'm Mister fucking Rogers. I have a small circle of truly amazing friends that I'm sure I'd die without. I have hobbies keeping me busy, unfortunately I'm not working but I'm not too worried. Working on unemployment and also trying to find a job, albeit not looking as hard as I could be. Still on the lonely side of single, but again, I'm not letting it keep me down, at least not too often. Current mood:  calmCurrent music: True Life - I'm A Southern Belle Sunday, June 14, 20098:55PMA cowboy moseys into a town. Being a cowboy, the first place he heads is the saloon. He is a cowboy, after all. Wednesday, July 30, 200811:11AM - About to slog another day away at work...Why do I wake up at 10:15 when I don't have to be at work until 2? It's not like I accomplish anything. Yesterday I woke up at 9. Both nights I didn't get to sleep until like 3 am. I was hammered last night, too. Surprised I'm not hung over. I pass my time before work by reading old lj entries of friends that don't post anymore or that have abandoned those journals for newer ones. Not sure why I do it, maybe so I can keep timelines of my downfall straight in my head. Saw where I fucked up with Laura in 06, Ashley many times and years before that, I don't know. Focusing on the negative again, though it's so damn easy when there's so much of it. Yet I still feel the need to dredge up the past, dead memories that have already been laid to rest so I can feel mosr misery than I really should. I suppose it makes me feel alive. It makes me feel something at least. Friday, February 29, 200811:56PM - Update before FFXISo I just finished a second training class at work. I'm now officially a "WinBack Agent" for Dish Network. I'm actually really happy about this because unlike most of my friends and family who've worked at Echostar, I really love my job. It's actually comforting in a way that I found something out of my comfort zone that I'm good at, plus the people that work there have been awesome to me. Not to mention I got a groovy red lanyard instead of a normal black one (which I never used, I used my Wii lanyard). Yes it's a semi-corporate environment and yes I work in "just a call center" but that really doesn't matter to me. My previous shift was killing my social life but I fixed that with my new shift. Now I work 6:30 a.m. till 3:00 p.m. with Fridays and Saturdays off. Tell me that's not an awesome shift. Now I get to see my friends more often, I get to see my family more often, and I get to experience more then 2 or 3 hours of daylight. Needless to say I'm much happier now. Current mood: cheerfulCurrent music: Stairway to Heaven - Led Zeppelin Thursday, February 14, 20083:14AM - Thanks to my brother"Twister is like the analog version of every rhythm game ever!" Friday, February 1, 20084:28AM - Gaming Backlog!Since I haven't done one of these in a LONG time (now broken up by console!) Wednesday, January 23, 200812:38AM - Gaming ReflectionsNow I know I'm probably the only relatively serious gamer among me and my readers, and that's probably saying something. I don't get along with "gamers" per se. Most of the modern gamers are trash talking kids that couldn't speedrun a fucking Sonic the Hedgehog game. They're the Madden freaks, the Halo junkies, the people jumping all over every single popular game because those morons on G4 told them to. The people that bought Lair. The people who "enjoyed" Daikatana. The ones that still expect DNF to come out before armageddon. These people who will buy games because of pretty graphics and not because of good gameplay, design, or storyline. The people who are too loyal to a company to see the absolute dreck they put out year after year, I'm looking at YOU, EA. The people who won't get off Square-Enix's dick long enough to see that while Final Fantasy VII was a good game, it's been run into the ground. Especially when you get shit like Dirge of Cerberus. They're the reason innovative games like Tomba and Katamari Damacy fly under the radar while shit like Daikatana can get released. Yes I realize my references are dated, but it truly doesn't matter. The same could have been said years ago when Superman 64 came out, or before that ET for the 2600. Yes there are bad games every generation, and yes they outnumber the good ones 4 or 5 to 1. It's not only the fanbase's fault however. When companies are allowed to put out unfinished games, games that tested poorly, or games with unbearable glitches and storylines that fall apart the last third of the game (yes you, Indigo Prophecy), it really brings down the standard. Technology is so much more amazing than it was in the late 80s and early 90s, yet few modern games can compare to the sheer feeling of awe you get when you fire up your first Sonic game, your first Zelda or Mario. Your first Final Fantasy, or even better, Chrono Trigger. I mean sure, I got that feeling from Shadow of the Colossus, from Twilight Princess, from Bioshock and Assassin's Creed. The people who let amazing companies like Working Designs die, they should be punished with playing Bubsy 3D on infinite loop for the rest of eternity. We lost the publisher that put out amazing games like Vanguard Bandits, Arc the Lad 1-3, Silhouette Mirage, and the Lunar games, all because of Sony's perception that fans hate 2d gaming. The best fighting games and most of the best RPGs are 2d. Look at the King of Fighters series, the 2 3D games were utter garbage (though maximum Impact 2 had a saving grace in Billy Kane). And Final Fantasy X and X-2 as examples of how 3d RPGs should be done? Square-Enix is lucky that FFXI, FFXII, and Star Ocean: Till the End of Time were good games. Yes this is a petty, biased rant, but it's my right. Hell, even if not a right, who's going to stop me? Thoughts? Wednesday, January 9, 200812:43AM - MEME!Because we never really know each other as well as we think, in response to this post I'd like you to ask a question. Anything about which you are curious, anything you feel you ought to know about me. Silly, serious, personal, fannish. Ask away. Then copy this to your own journal, and see what people don't know about you. Thursday, November 15, 200710:07PM - Sexual DeviancyHow do you define a sexual deviant? One who's sexually attracted to someone outside of the social norm? Men attracted to men, women to women, humans to animals, adults to prepubescents? What societal norms decided that humans should only be attracted to other humans of the opposite gender and the same age group? I understand that in older time periods the lifespan was shorter and people wed and reproduced younger, but does longer lifespan alone dictate who you should rightfully be attracted to? Is it some religious belief? I'm interested in your thoughts, the few readers I still have... Saturday, August 25, 2007Saturday, August 4, 2007Thursday, August 2, 200712:57AM - Nerd off!Behind the cut is all the game consoles/games I own. Sunday, October 3, 2004 |
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